please be patient with me...

I did not know that the insecurities that were whispering in my ear were shouting at you…I know that there are parts of me that are not whole…but as the song says…please be patient with me…god is not through with me yet…

My walk is still new…you know…the real walk…the one where I sincerely seek his face and seek to him and draw to him so that he will keep me in the perfect peace that passes all understanding…

I’m still learning to let Him work on getting that part right…still learning to determine which thoughts come from Him and what thoughts are the enemy’s…trying to listen and know without a doubt that what I am hearing is his still small voice

So…while like a baby taking her first steps…I will stumble and fall along way…I will reach out for his hand to steady me…and eventually come to realize that if I just keep my hand in the master’s hand…my steps will be steady…my way will be light…my burdens will be easy…he will make my feet like hinds feet and yea though I walk through that valley…

I will not fear…I will not doubt…my insecurities will give way to confidence…my self-consciousness will evaporate into thin air…

But even sometimes…when I take my hand away…trying to walk on my own…or when I look away from my father…I know that I will sink in the same way that peter did when he took his eyes off jesus and began to sink into the sea

So…during those times…I ask that you are patient…

Please be patient with me…god is not through with me yet….

When god gets through me…

I shall come forth as pure gold…