count it all joy...

these trials come to make us strong...so count it all joy...

our faith is tested so that our endurance will grow...so let it grow...for when your endurance is strengthed...you will be strong in character and ready for anything...

none of us want to go through hardship...it's a fact of life...against humn nature to want to be uncomfortable...but if you think about it...it is the hard times that perfects us...

it doesn't feel good to go through the fire...

when the potter is molding the clay...

when the iron is being sharpened by iron...

when you climbing uphill...that long and uphill journey...

but it is god's will that we are tested...SOMETIMES...now...i'm not saying that every bad thing that happens to you is god's will...some of what happens to you is bad decisions that you make while you are living outside of god's will...and because you won't learn...god ALLOWS to go through some things...

but sometimes...our faith is tested...to see where we really are...what your beliefs really are...do you really believe that god will provide? do you really know that if you delight yourself in him that he will give you the desires of your heart? are you really delighting yourself in him?...or...are you praising him and serving him because of what he can do for you?

do you know how big of a revelation it was for me to realize that it just because god is god that i seek him...

and i seek him...fervently...i am stalking him...i want to see him everywhere i go...my every thought is of him...i am so in love with him...that i can't breathe without him...reminds of that toni braxton song...breathe again...now she was talking a man...but i am talking about my god...in him i live and in him i breathe and without him i would surely die...

so...i am seeking his will for my life...seeking his anointing...seeking his presence...seeking his touch...seeking to hear his still small voice...and if he never does another thing for me...still i will seek him...

blessed beyond measure

now unto him who is able to able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we can ask for think...

god wants to abundantly bless you...he wants you so blessed that you cannot begin to imagine how blessed you could be...

he wants to full you up and have you overflowing with blessings...he wants your cup to run over...

he wants to pour out a blessings that you will not have room to receive...

he wants to give you a blessign that you cannot measure...he doesn't just want to give you a roomful of blessings or a mile of blessings or a month of blessings...he wants you so blessed that you can not measure it by any means...

other than it is a godly blessing...because it is through god that ALL blessings flow...

getting out of my way...

there are some things that i need god to do...this morning...i had an 'aha' moment...i realized that in order for god to bless me in the way that he has promised...there are some things that i need to do...in the spiritual and in the natural...

i have GOT to stop letting the mountain that lies before me appear to be bigger than the god that i serve...i've got to keep remembering....GREAT BIG GOD!!!....itty, bitty devil...

i also have to finish some things that i told others that i would...how can i expect God to keep his word to me...if i have not kept my word to others?

so...the next couple of days...i will be completing some projects and making good on some promises...i will also begin the fast that i was supposed to begin today...and i will fast for three days...

because i realize that i am the one that is standing in the way of my own blessings...so...i am making it my business to get out of my way...

take cover...

when an enemy is advancing on an army's camp...what do they do?...they take cover...

when you see a storm approaching...what do you do?...you take cover...

but while you re undercover...you are not just sitting there cowering in fear and anguish...

you should be planning your retaliation...figuring your next move...

that will cause the enemy to be defeated or to move you away from the storm...

it most often will take an act of faith...and sometimes...that act of faith is not getting busy just to be getting busy...

sometimes...it is standing and waiting to hear that still small voice...

i'm not that patient...

i'm supposed to be journalling...as directed in by ms. wilson...i'm not really feeling this whole process right now...

under construction...next 6 months...

i'm reading Knight in Shining Armor by P.B. Wilson...i will be dating God exclusive for the next six months...let the construction begin...

please be patient with me...

I did not know that the insecurities that were whispering in my ear were shouting at you…I know that there are parts of me that are not whole…but as the song says…please be patient with me…god is not through with me yet…

My walk is still new…you know…the real walk…the one where I sincerely seek his face and seek to him and draw to him so that he will keep me in the perfect peace that passes all understanding…

I’m still learning to let Him work on getting that part right…still learning to determine which thoughts come from Him and what thoughts are the enemy’s…trying to listen and know without a doubt that what I am hearing is his still small voice

So…while like a baby taking her first steps…I will stumble and fall along way…I will reach out for his hand to steady me…and eventually come to realize that if I just keep my hand in the master’s hand…my steps will be steady…my way will be light…my burdens will be easy…he will make my feet like hinds feet and yea though I walk through that valley…

I will not fear…I will not doubt…my insecurities will give way to confidence…my self-consciousness will evaporate into thin air…

But even sometimes…when I take my hand away…trying to walk on my own…or when I look away from my father…I know that I will sink in the same way that peter did when he took his eyes off jesus and began to sink into the sea

So…during those times…I ask that you are patient…

Please be patient with me…god is not through with me yet….

When god gets through me…

I shall come forth as pure gold…

out of my egypt....

will talk about the bondage of being held in captivity of your thoughts...

and knowing that seeking god can bring you out of that...

are you your own pharoah? will it take 10 plagues for you to let yourself go?...are you the one that is standing in the way of your own blessing?

uncharted territory...

maybe for you...but not for god...

god knows exactly where He wants to take you...

but because he allows us free will...we decide that we can fix it or that we can make it work and we try to do it ourselves...

and we end up knocking ourselves so far off course...that it takes a miracle from god to get us back on the right step...

what are you doing out there wandering around in the wilderness like the children of israel?...god has a plan for your life and if you just submit yourself to his will and earnestly seek Him then there is nowhere that you cannot go with him...

proverbs 31 woman...oh really?

all these women up in the church running around talking about how they are a prov 31 woman...most of them have never even read that chapter...much less know that it's the last chapter in that book of the bible...

all these men running around talking about they want a prov 31 woman...but have not proven themselves to god to be men who are ready to cover a prov 31 woman in the way that she should...

you ain't ready...

the biggest reason you can't receive what god has for you is because you're not ready...

the biggest obstacle you have in god answering your prayers is that you are not ready...

the thing that's keeping you from walking into the glow of the blessings that god has for you is you because you are not seeking the face of god...you do not delight yourself in him...you do not keep his commandments...you do not draw nigh to him so that he can draw nigh to you...you are too busy worrying about the wrong things...

the reason god won't let you meet a man that will love you the way that christ loved the church is because you do not love god the way that you should love him...

the reason it seems like every thing keeps going wrong in your life is because you have made him the co-pilot when he should be the pilot...

god is waiting for you...you ain't waiting on god...god been ready...

but it's you who are not ready...

the bible says that if you delight yourself in the lord...he will give you the desires of your heart...'the bible wasn't talking about just on sundays...or just at choir rehearsal on tuesday night...when you come to church acting like sista goody two shoes...get to feeling good about yo little too cute self...and before you can get out the church parking lot you are on the phone with your "friend"..asking him to come over and give you a massage...

baby let me tell you if you did not know...ain't no man got no business coming to yo house in the middle of the night rubbing on you...you cannot handle that...you are tempting yourself to sin and your weak flesh cannot handle that...it will give in...

the lords prayer says lead me not into temptation...the prayer of jabez says to keep me from evil...what that means in case you didn't know is that you should not be trying to withstand temptation...you ought to see it coming and head quick in the other direction...

honey...because you are not totally committed to god and you are not aligned with his word...you ain't got enough scripture in you yet to meet the devil head on...besides...YOU can't battle the devil anyway...it's the christ in you that will defeat the enemy on your half...

but if you're not feeding your spirit man by reading your bible and bending you knee and continually seeking the face of god...you are leaving yourself open to the attack of the enemy...

sometimes...you might look around at yo so called friends and wonder why are they doing so good? why they have such a good job? why they have a man that treat them so good?...

it's because they are not where you are...i'm not saying that they are bad people...but the enemy has them where he wants them...they are not putting themselves in a position to hear from god...they are content in their mess and ain't trying to make a change...they have fooled themselves into believing that as long as they come to church on sunday and are good tax paying law abiding citizens then they are just fine...

they don't know that their problem is that they are obeying the wrong laws...the bible says that i will bless them that keep my commandments...yes...they might appear to be blessed on the outside...but you don't know what's going on with them on the inside...and you can't have what they have because you know too much...you allowed god into a little corner of your heart and your spirit won't let him go...

but ya' still not putting him first...ya' still coming in here playing church on sunday and running the streets all week long...the reason god won't let you find that job...or get off the bus line...or have that right relationship...the reason that you can't find peace in your current situation...is because you act like you don't know that if you keep your mind on him...he will keep you in perfect peace...and you long for all these early things...and god won't let you have them because he knows that if you get them...you will NEVER put him first...

so...god is not ignoring you...and you are not waiting on god to answer your prayers...god is waiting on you to come to your senses...because all of the little creature comforts that you long for...their pleasure here on earth is fleeting...because ONLY what you do for christ will last...

talk is NOT cheap

one of the biggest lies the devil has ever made you believe is that talk is cheap...the bible says that there is power of life and death in the tongue...it tells you to speak things that are not as though they were...

don't let the devil fool you into thinking that you can not speak blessings into your life...that you cannot speak healing over your sick body...that you cannot break the curse of lack over your finances by speaking prosperity...that you cannot look at the mountain that stands before you and say be thou removed....

the devil has you walking around all broke busted and disgusted and he's got you right where he wants you to be...walking around whining talking about i can't get ahead...the man always trying to keep down...if my daddy would have been in my life...i my husband wouldn't have left me...if my wife wouldn't ran off with that man...

shut up with all that nonsense...god don't want to hear that...you allow the devil to trick you into walking around defeating...letting him steal your joy...making you forget your inheritance...

you are child of god and there is nothing that you cannot accomplish with god on your side...he is your joy and your strength...he is your provider...he is your protector...

so...shut up...if you cannot proclaim the promises of the lord and speak blessings over your life...then just don't say anything...

is your power out?

if you are not connected to the father...you have no power...

you may have a generator...but what you need is a constance source of power that cannot be shaken by any storm...

your power will not blink in and out...your power will be made whole...because he went down into the grave and came up with ALL power in his hand...